Waking up this morning, looking around my very messy, cluttered bedroom I thought “I can hardly wait until my life is less chaotic and I have all the time in the world for housework giving me a clean and organized home AND no clutter.” Clutter tends to make me bitchy; I can ignore clutter for so long but then after a while I can no longer ignore it, I explode and get rid of everything. As I walked down the stairs toward the kitchen, I looked to my left and my bloody Christmas tree still hasn’t been taken down and some of the opened gifts are still sitting in their boxes under the tree! How is it before Christmas all the decorations and the lit up tree looks magical and after Christmas decorations looks junky? Mental check – get Christmas tree and decorations all put away this weekend and then I realized between both my boys, my husband and I, we have about six or seven hockey games and/or practices this weekend. Chances of us getting everything packed and put away are slim to none. I started to feel a little overwhelmed, frustrated and started wishing for a real life only to realize; this is my real life and it’s as real as it gets. The boys are healthy and active in hockey and school. My husband and I are exhausted but we are healthy and happy. At times when we are really busy tensions can fly, but mostly we argue, laugh, cry and we do this all together. I never make new year’s resolutions because I don’t believe in making resolutions and not keeping them, but this morning I made a resolution. A little late I know, but I decided that I’m going to stop wishing my life away and grab on to what I have now and embrace life to the fullest, even if it means – cranky, mad, tired, too busy, loving, funny, happy and sad – no matter what life throws at me I’m determined to embrace it knowing that this is my life, right here right now. There really isn’t a tomorrow there is a today, the moment is now, I’ll worry about tomorrow tomorrow. Difficult for me to do because I tend to be a planner, a person who wants to know my direction on any given day but in 2014 I’m going with the flow and seeing where that takes me. We forget that every day is a gift, a gift to cherish, a gift of joy. It’s now the end of the day, 10:30 pm to be exact, I started writing this post this afternoon on my lunch break , finished my afternoon of work, drove home ate dinner and back out the door to my son’s hockey game. I’m off to bed to start again early in the morning for two hockey games, housework in the afternoon and then a friend’s for dinner and start all over again Sunday..Yeah I’m busy, tired and my house is a damn mess and I could stay home miss the games to clean the house, but the time is right here right now and I’m gonna take it!
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