NEVER TURNING BACK

as I walk on this path called life,

many past events haunt me,

wanders in and out of my thoughts when I least expect it,

alters my actions at times in current situations,

brings me anger in times of confrontation,

question motives and actions,

gives me the ability to look directly in eyes,

and see for who they really are,

search for truth and goodness,

empathy and compassion,

silly, funny and loving,

for this is what I see in the ones I love,

family, friends and children,

slowly I walk away from the haunting,

and into the arms of the ones I love,

trusting, loving, spiritual and connected,

in Him I trust.

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THE BEST 10 QUOTES FROM DR. SEUSS – HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Cookie Momma reminded me that it’s Dr. Seuss’ birthday today – an absolute genius.  I loved Dr. Seuss books as a child and fell in love with him again when I introduced him to my children.  Perfect day for Dr. Seuss quotes after all his quotes are the best:

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”

“I like nonsense it, it wakes up the brain cells.  Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living”

“You have brains in your head.  You have feet in your shoes.  You can steer yourself any direction you choose.  You’re on your own.  And you know what you know.  And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go..”

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.”

“Today you are You, that is truer than true.  There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

” A person’s a person, no matter how small.”

“In my world, everyone’s a pony and they all eat rainbows and poop butterflies!”

“I meant what i said and i said what i meant.  An elephant’s faithful one-hundred percent!”

“How did it get late so soon?” It’s night before it’s afternoon. December is here before it’s June.  My goodness how the time has flewn.  How did it get late so soon?”

“If you never did you should.  These things are fun and fun is good.”

It’s hard to narrow it down to just ten – three more!

“Christmas doesn’t come from a store, maybe Christmas perhaps means a little bit more…”

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

“I know, up on top you are seeing great sights, but down here at the bottom we, too should have rights.”

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW!

After work as I sat on my porch watching my boys playing roller hockey, I turned to the sky and saw this – it’s been such a miserable couple of days and I’ve been feeling rather exhausted and here is this beautiful rainbow showing me that things can improve.  This quote says it all:

“Life is like a rainbow, you need both the sun and the rain to make its colours appear”

Looking forward to the weekend!

A FEW FAVOURITE QUOTES

Quotes inspire me and I feel when you find one that touches your heart, it is your duty to share  – I plan to share quotes in the future.

I found this one while searching blogs – studiolightblue – This lady’s blog inspires me!

“Let me ask you something, what is not art? Author unknown

Another favourite in the artist category

” I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free.”   Michelangelo

ALZHEIMER’S REVISITED

When my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and was still living close to me – I spent some time reading about the disease so I could prepare myself and other family members for the eventual fate of Alzheimer’s.   One book that meant the most to me was “Losing my mind” by Thomas DeBaggio, a well known herb farmer in the United States.  When he was diagnosed with the disease he set out to write a book about the various stages of the disease – what makes this book so interesting is that he was going through the stages as he was writing about the disease.  At times he said he couldn’t remember what a word looked like never mind write it.  The book fascinated me, saddened me, frightened me, taught me much about Alzheimer’s and about the journey we were about to embark upon with our mother.  Below is a poem he received from a woman who wrote this poem dedicated to her husband as she watched his mind being robbed by the disease – the poem struck a chord with me and I kept it close to my heart.  Two years after reading it, I included the poem at the end of the Eulogy I said at my mother’s funeral.  As the disease robbed my mother of the joys in her life, this poem reminded me of her because she fought the disease with all of her heart – determined to try and remember.  For anyone who is suffering of watching a loved one waste away with Alzheimer’s or anyone who has been through this experience I believe it may bring you some comfort.

Alzheimer’s Revisited

Today I hear the voice of a 58 year old man,

As he spoke of losing his memory,

Word by word, thought by thought,

He said “The only thing I never forget

is that I have Alzheimer’s disease.”

As he spoke of exercising his mind,

I pictured, once again, my husband

sitting at his desk, writing his name,

over and over, letters missing,

writing fading into a meaningless scrawl.

Then a group of near-perfect signatures.

Strong will and determination to not let go,

Beaten by the inevitable progress

of a mind-stealing illness.

At that moment I wanted to reach out

and tell this family that I too could

never forget that I loved one who

had Alzheimer’s disease.

I wanted to tell them too,

That times of pure love and closeness

will be theirs to savour and enjoy.

The simple accomplishments

are like a mountain climbed.

A victory against all odds.

That the act of unlearning

is like a book read backwards.

The words and stories there

to be unscrambled, interpreted,

and imprinted on the minds of others.

Author Anonymous

http://books.google.ca/books/about/Losing_My_Mind.html?id=X5NqTZTVwgMC

My mother pictured at our wedding – one of the last good times everyone was all together before she got sick.

HUMMINGBIRD

If you have ever had the chance to watch a hummingbird you would know that this is true:

“Legends say that hummingbirds float free of time, carrying our hopes for love, joy and celebration. Hummingbirds open our eyes to the wonder of the world and inspire us to open our hearts to loved ones and friends. Like a hummingbird, we aspire to hover and to savor each moment as it passes, embrace all that life has to offer and to celebrate the joy of everyday. The hummingbird’s delicate grace reminds us that life is rich, beauty is everywhere, every personal connection has meaning and that laughter is life’s sweetest creation.” 

http://amsdaily.net/2012/01/05/the-legend-of-the-hummingbirds/

MAN’S BEST FRIEND

“He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.”  pittieful love 

Several years ago we visited my sister in Toronto.  Jag is his name and he provided love, play and laughter while we were visiting. The boys love dogs, desperately want a dog and when I see these pictures I feel so guilty.  I also know how much work a dog can be and how much love dogs need. I strongly believe that when you own a dog that you have adopted a family member.  I would feel terrible constantly leaving a family member behind as we are running around from here to there.  I also believe that everything has it’s time, maybe the time for a dog has not yet reached this family and just maybe the time will reach this family soon.  Sssh  –  don’t tell my boys I said that!

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SHE’S UNDONE

I watch her everyday,

walking through her life at this moment so strong and bright,

but underneath it all, she’s starting to become undone,

I see it in her eyes, body and gestures,

she’s trying to be so strong, but she’s slowly falling apart inside,

she has to be strong for her husband and her child, but somewhere

inside there is a little girl just begging to have this all over,

I try to just be there, without reminding her everyday of her worries,

I sure hope she knows that I’m there to lend a helping hand, a good ear and

a shoulder to cry on.

I think she knows that I’m there, but she has other worries right now

not a time to be selfish or needy, it’s a time to just sit and wait,

things will get better and she will get stronger,

she doesn’t realize that she’s already stronger,

through her fragility, vulnerability and  emotions,

her strength is shining through,

I’m very proud to be her friend and even though there is little I can do,

my prayers are with her everyday.

Johanne Fraser